I'm feeling very little drive to even log onto RO these days, except to afk Sam and Scratch. Dragon's Ire merged with Killer Tomatoes, so when I go online the guild is always full of people I don't know who are usually off doing things in their little cliques, and I'm on for so little time I just don't see any real incentive to try and make friends.
Remi and Zech have almost completely moved to Valkyrie, which sort of stings, but its not as if I have much time to play with them anyway, especially since they're in an earlier time zone. Esper's usually doing homework or already has plans on RO when I'm around, but he's a full-time college student and big WoE guild leader so who can blame him? Uh... And those three are pretty much the only people on RO I actually talk to. Guh. That's not healthy.
I haven't seen my real-life friends in awhile either because I work straight through the weekends, which is when most of them are available. In addition, my D&D game (the venue through which I did the most interacting with said friends) has been postponed for an indeterminate amount of time, and the two other friends I'm pretty close to aren't returning phone messages.
My coworkers and I get along pretty well, but aside from being animal lovers, we don't seem to have much in common. Just last week I was reading Catcher in the Rye in the breakroom (I missed out on it in high school and had always wanted to read it) and two of the vet techs pulled the "omg, y u read books? : O" routine that I haven't seen since high school. Why is it that depressing things always start with high school analogies? OMG Y I NOT POPULAR GRIL?
Anyway, I started talking about how books are a big part of my identity and they just gave me vacant stares and said they never understood why teachers made them read. They weren't belittling me in any way, but I still left the conversation feeling sort of depressed. Then there's the coworker who talks to me like I'm a 6 year old, but he's a story for another time.
I still have Michael, of course, but a significant other just isn't the same thing as a friend.
Bottom line: I don’t feel like I have any real friends anymore. Everyone is just an acquaintance or a stream of words on my computer screen. Hopefully I'll snap out of it soon and realize I only get as many friends as I actually go out and look for.
You haven't looked at me that way in years
You dreamed me up and left me here
How long was I dreaming for?
And what was it you wanted me for?
You haven't looked at me that way in years
Your watch has stopped, and the pond is clear
Someone turn the lights back on
I'll love you till all time is gone
You haven't looked at me that way in years
But I'm still here.
Tyr Aldsvider
9X/6X Hybrid Sniper.
Wears his heart on his sleeve, and his spleen on his shoe.
Tristan Skyshadow
9X/5X Combo Champion.
Traded his G-Fist skill points for a cheese sandwich.
Yagharek
9X/6X FS High Priest.
Would heal you, if only you weren't such an idiot.
Kaspar Hauser
8X/5X Hindsight Scholar.
He is NOT touching you! Stay on your side! MOM!
Monsieur Meursault
9x/5x Intimigank Stalker.
T< exp items for absinthe and clove cigarettes.
Lucifer Sam + Mr. Scratch
99/50 & 99 Baby Battle Alchemist & Knight Vanilmirth.
Bugbutt-errant and his noble squire.
Daeg Aldsvider, Alban Eiler & Oshidori
6X/3X or so Whatsits
Will not be on this semester's exam.
I'm Still Here
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I love you Tris.
You will ALWAYS be my friend, RO or not, I believe we may have met through RO but we survived being on different servers, and yet we have different tastes in a lot of things; we always manage to be great friends.
We will ALWAYS be friends.
(usually I reserve comments like this for MSN/1:1 only... But sometimes everyone needs some love in public :3)
You will ALWAYS be my friend, RO or not, I believe we may have met through RO but we survived being on different servers, and yet we have different tastes in a lot of things; we always manage to be great friends.
We will ALWAYS be friends.
(usually I reserve comments like this for MSN/1:1 only... But sometimes everyone needs some love in public :3)
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What Esper said basically. I may not have known you as long as Esper or partied with you much on RO, but at times it seems like we've been the best of friends for a long time. Of course, that may be because our tastes interact a lot or just that we get along so well. It's like a kindled spirit kinda thing. Whatever. I believe internet friendships, no matter how far off it seems sometimes are still considered to be 'irl friendships', and if not, then borderline. You always got me Sam, I promise ya that. And of course, like I've offered too many times in the past, if you need someone to talk to, my number can always be considered. Whatever I can do.
.... Er, otherwise, Y U REED BOOKZ?
.... Er, otherwise, Y U REED BOOKZ?
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I've felt the same way... right now, too xD I know my friends are not the evil people they seem to be lately, that they just have other stuff to do... but again, I can't help feeling I've been pushed to the side because I don't want to be all "FXCK YEAH, BAR-HOPPING WOOO, LET'S GET DRUNK WOOOO" with them :|
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Come to Sakray while it's still open! :D Ask for an invite to Where's My Tractor. Say you know the guild leader, which is me. /ok
Anyway, I understand how you feel, too, considering I have an amazingly hard time making friends in real life. I had problems on RO, too, but I ended up realizing that they won't come to me; I have to come to them. And even though I considered myself the annoying tag-along at first, they are a great bunch of people. They all came to join Where's My Tractor?! when I remade it on Sakray through a whim.
Everyone has their downtimes. But on the other hand, there are people who definitely care about you. :D I still remember you replying to me on ROLJ, thinking that you're an awesome person, and that I'm on the wrong server.
Anyway, I understand how you feel, too, considering I have an amazingly hard time making friends in real life. I had problems on RO, too, but I ended up realizing that they won't come to me; I have to come to them. And even though I considered myself the annoying tag-along at first, they are a great bunch of people. They all came to join Where's My Tractor?! when I remade it on Sakray through a whim.
Everyone has their downtimes. But on the other hand, there are people who definitely care about you. :D I still remember you replying to me on ROLJ, thinking that you're an awesome person, and that I'm on the wrong server.